I lack patience.

I admit I must seem impatient, and even demanding. Not good qualities for a submissive to possess. I want to feel that familiar pressure on my throat, while He slaps my face demanding my attention. I am craving the unexpected sting as He welts the flesh on my backside. The sharp stab of pain as He wraps my hair around His hand, pushing me to my knees and forcing His hard cock into my mouth, before fucking my face like it is a cunt. I want to struggle, blindfolded, my wrists chafing against the ropes He has bound me with, then accept my punishment because I should know better. I want to arouse Him to a point where He wants to hurt me, be so beautiful He resents me for it.