I am feeling a lot better. Sir has been sick too, he thinks he had the flu. It's a terrible time of year for colds and flus, now we are coming into winter. I was annoyed I could not do anything to help. He is so busy with his work at the moment too. We spoke again the other day. He asked if I was feeling better, and we exchanged a few emails. Later on that evening I sent him my post that I had written awhile ago about when he took me out to dinner. He liked it. I'm glad he appreciates my writing. he is the first person I have really shared it with. Well I only really just started...but you know what I mean. He said he does think about me, and yes I am not nasty enough but that is of no concern to him. He says I am like a blank canvas, and if he chooses to become my master I will be moulded into the slut he desires.
Sir is very perverted. He scares girl a bit. She wonders what sort of depraved path he will make her walk down. Then in the back of her mind a small voice giggles softly yet decidedly. She knows that the dark recesses of his mind are no match for her corruption. She can take what he wants to dish out, but I hope he will still let me be a bit of a princess. :) I am to practise my french inhales, Sir expects them to be well improved the next time we meet. I miss him. This strange, yet impossibly intriguing man who makes me go weak at the knees. The cafe across the street just opened. Best coffee in the city. I swear. And the man that runs the coffee shop is this beautiful italian man. Now he also makes me go weak at the knees.
I have a small dilemma I suppose. Well, not really. My only problem is that I want to continue seeing Sir, but I also want to take a leap of faith and pursue sexy cafe man. The only trouble with that is, that he is very charming to everyone he meets. Now he is charming to me and also regularly slips some sexual innuendo into the conversation. I know he wants to meet someone. So the age old question..do I put myself on the line or just continue to enjoy his company? Sexy cafe man is successful and I see him as a bit out of my league, but I've known him a year and we are quite amicable. He is not as tall as Sir but he is more built, and oh so sexy. (Did I mention that, lol?) And 4 years older. He looks like he should be dominant. His body language towards me suggests he would be. But you just never know. Love to find out. ;)
I do so love men who are a bit older than my self. I've never been into boys. I can remember all through high school, even towards the end of primary school, all of my sexual fantasies revolved around the handsome younger teachers. It's funny to think back on it. Such a dirty little slut. Sir calls me that. "Goodnight my dirty little slut". I love it. I love the picture I took of myself to send him last week. Sir approved. Best picture ever. When I'm less paranoid I'll post it on here.
Ok, shower time. I might be back to write after I get coffee. What better way to start your day than with a hot shower, a hot man and a hot coffee. :) Life is so sweet. *sighs with contentment*
Oh, one more thing. I'm going to get a tattoo I've been planning it. Writing in ancient filipino script - alibata. It will say pride / strength, honour and submission. It will have a image of sampaguita jasmine, the national flower of the philippines, and I want some sort of wing design. It will sit in the upper middle part of my back. Symmetrical. I'll put up a pic of some ideas I've got so far.
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