A little bit sad.

I cried because of Sir tonight. I'm feeling miserable because he seems so dissatisfied with me. I wrote an email this morning and I thought it had sent but it mustn't of, because Sir did not email me back. Not knowing this I wrote a short note tonight and he was not happy, saying he had already responded, but he had actually replied to another email I wrote last night. He is now more intense in regards to the way he speaks to me in his emails. It's always dumb slut and stupid bitch. No more good girls. I feel inadequate and it makes me question what I'm doing. Anyway, I repeated my email from this morning - adding yet another apology, I wonder if I should stop apologising - I'm just trying to be polite. He would have already been asleep when I sent it. Maybe I should just stop whining and being a dumb slut and a stupid bitch. There's always two sides to the story.