Sir is too nice to me lately. It makes me edgy and happy at the same time. I worry that he has another girl, a nastier slut than me that I play substitute for. I also worry that he may actually just like girl.
I know he is busy but I can’t help but wonder. Especially when he hasn’t taken me to his house. Maybe he is ashamed because it is messy but doesn’t he understand I need more of him? More of the different parts of him. Why does he always pop in and out? Will there ever be a time when he spends the night or I at his? What am I to him? Does he value me and if he does what is it he values about me?
I get my knickers in a knot over him. Means that I like him. Or I wouldn’t care. And it’s not as if there is a shortage of male talent around. But Sir is divine. 6’4 big broad shoulders, muscly but still potential for more…mm he makes me weak at the knees. Soft kissable lips. A strong measured hand, disciplined from karate.
Why am I complaining? girl wants to be punished. He has only played with her so far yet hints that he wants to push so much farther. girl wants it. She wants Sir to make her cry and scream and then be tender and gentle with her.
It confuses her when he is only gentle and loving. girl finds it hard to accept. Maybe that is something that girl needs to address. She needs to stop topping from the bottom. Sir knows best and until he hurts her or she is unhappy she should shut her mouth and appreciate whatever it is that Sir is handing out. And try to learn some patience… :)
girl has joined the gym and her muscles are sore from training the last few days. When I lose another 9 kg Sir is going to fuck me and fuck me again and again. And choke me as he fucks me with his big cock. Mmmm. His words. Can't wait *evil giggle* I'm happy I met him. My life is on track. I am just about to be registered as a nurse, I love my house (although I have a bone to pick with one of the flatmates)I truly love my job and I have lost so much weight and continue to. I want to be 60kg but I want to be healthy. girl did 50 mins of cardio and about 45 of strength training. I love it. I never thought I would but I do.
Sir is going to buy me some boots and also I may be getting my tongue pierced. Everybody is very opposed but you know what.. I don't care a great deal lol. Sir is happy for me to get a gold piercing so that suits me just fine. girl doesn't wear silver as a general rule. She can be a bit of a princess like that :) I feel better after writing. I should do it more.
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